people find themselves doing the most
incredible things
deeds they have never thought they would do.
words they have never thought they would say.
feelings they have never thought they would feel.
by the late afternoon i was brain-stoned.
i sat at my desk,
going through several things i need to do,
at the same time.
i have no choice but to multi-task.
and i find that i am not completing much,
instead,
what i was doing,
was actually putting down more plans
for more tasks to be done.
so that is the definition of "endless".
no wonder i can never leave for home,
early.
mr wong came by,
told me my mailbox is over-quota.
i heard him.
and i told me,
"me too".
so i lean back on my chair
and think of a mundane existence i have recently.
i started to think about what i had for lunch
today.
the scenerio came up,
the vision of the food,
the people around me,
the conversation,
and
i realised,
that was lunch,
two days ago.
i thought about it hard,
no, i haven't had lunch,
for 2 days now.
i am really over-quota,
i can't even process a simple thought.
so i snap back to reality,
and see more work,
left undone.
after the last student had left,
i went up to art room to lock the back door.
it was all quiet.
i didn't switch on the lights.
i peep at all the work-in-progress,
in the dark,
they look so calm.
i smoothed out each crumpled corner i found,
i re-arranged each messy spot,
i turned off the tap tight to stop the water dripping,
and all these,
will be gone in another month's time.
so will the creators.
tomorrow,
this room will be vibrant again,
from afternoon to the wee hours.
and we shall all remember it.
i had the disappointment in me
since morning.
i avoided the disappointment-creator
as well.
but it just didn't go away.
reasoning helped.
i analysed it through and through.
i really thought seeing some stars may help,
but i didn't get any.
so be it.
at the foyer,
every teacher has a star board,
where classes or kids can pin their star-wishes
for us.
i went to read mine:
thankyou sec 2s
thankyou SJAB
thankyou beloved sec 5s
beloved sec 5s,
i am looking forward
to seeing my red umbrella
in your brilliant production.
and
i love U.
reader k | 8/26/2005 12:42:00 AM |
