Monday, March 13, 2006

how strong do we have to be?

after giving the report books,
i gave each of them a letter i wrote.
all the same letter but i printed 39 copies.
doesn't have the luxury like last year where i can write individual letters anymore.
some asked what it is.
some asked why i have to print so many since it's the same.
some says thanks.
some dropped it on the floor.

i missed my sec 5s.

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right after the report books, it's FlexSi meeting with P and VP.
more changes to be made. me and mas have no choice but to go on.
then off to art coursework.
in-betweens, my SJAB camp started.
4 days 3 nights Free but not Easy.
art coursework finally ended when i chased the last kid out at 6pm.
then finally chased mas back too.

camp went on well till the night.
went back to shower and pack my stuffs and back to school again.
before snady and i slogged somemore on FlexSi,
we ate prata but i was interrupted by a kid that can't sleep.
talked to her and talked to her.

the FlexSi continued.
me and sandy holding up as much as we can, even though we know we are dying.
i gave up first.
i fell asleep by 3am, when grace was till mumbling something to me.
few hours later, woken by PT session downstairs. 6.30am.
wash up, breakfast and off to Bukit Timah Nature Reserve.
the same kid threw tantrum. talked to her, walked with her.
walked there, up the hill, down the hill, and walked back to school.
everyone was dead beat.

didn't join them for field cooking as believe-it-or-not,
i'm still doing FlexSi.
P came in the afternoon with his hard drive,
ready to download our proposals.
i rushed through copying the files with kids coming in with some problems.
finally the problems have to be resolved.
i saved the files and rushed over to the kids.
all i got was extreme rudeness from one cadet.
the one that can't sleep, the same one that threw tantrums.
i took away her uniform, accessories and boots.
3 seniors sat with her while we await for her parents to come.
i came in to type a letter to sack her,
in the end i broke down.
all the stress and tiredness came in a pack.
if not for mdm ang, sandy, grace, adam and weilin,
who were there for me, it would have been worse.
i am glad i'm working with such wonderful people.

by 630pm, i gave in.
my body and mind are totally not functioning anymore.
i have to call A down to drive the car,
sandy have to carry my stuffs down for me.

this week, i'm weak.
totally trashed.





reader k | 3/13/2006 02:03:00 PM |
2 Comments:
Blogger Bluesoul said...

Oh my dear, dear K, I didn't know you went through so much that weekend. Close your eyes and imagine being enclosed in a warm hug that lasts as long as your tears flow. That is what I would have done for you. But I am glad there were other angels there when I couldn't be.

Please do take care and allow yourself a good rest.

7:02 PM  
Blogger k said...

i didn't know i ended that way too. it is scary to know that work has eaten into me that badly.

i hope you're feeling better too. i want to see you soon.

10:39 PM  

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