the grass is always greener on the other side.
my D&T kids sometimes love to hang out in the art room,
they envy the freedom,
the different atmosphere,
the craziness,
the music (that can get pretty loud at times)
the food,
the teachers (erm, i guess so, hehe)
my Art kids sometimes wished
they have the same studio
just like the D&T kids.
it is air-conditioned,
it has more than one miserable computers,
it is on the second floor,
it is near the canteen.
nothing is ever enough for anyone.
we are always looking for more things
in life.
that is why we complained so much.
and we compare, we do,
no matter how much we deny it.
there is nothing wrong with it.
it is hard to feel totally contended in today's society.
when i first get into teaching,
i was posted to a neighbourhood school,
teaching mostly the NA kids.
i had a culture shock.
i remembered looking at the kids,
who come to school everyday,
but on detention everyday.
some do not attend classes at all,
for days, or weeks.
school is not important to them,
scoring well means shit to them,
but when you do get their attention,
whether to do your work,
or hear you talk,
you realised,
they did that with sincerity.
i came from the Express background,
where competition is our everyday routine,
where mugging is done not only because it's exam time,
where we may step on each other just so to get ahead.
it's a pretentious world there,
but i was lucky enough to find some good friends.
Express or NA,
Diploma or Degree,
knowing that we have done our very, very best,
recognising the process we went through
to get to the goal,
not hurting anyone in the process, that is,
i guess that would leave us feeling really satisfied.
be happy with what we have,
but reach out for more because it is a challenge for ourselves,
a process of learning,
a journey of finding out answers,
maybe a chance to discover who we really are.
i am still in the process of doing that.
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the first time we talked,
i was trashing you,
telling you all your visible faults,
pin-pointing out your selfishness,
your super-ego,
your inconsiderations.
we talked more
in these few months,
here and there,
this and that,
some crap, some serious stuffs.
today we finally talk again,
till we forgot the time,
and there was no trashing at all,
but counting all the improvements
i have seen in you.
brilliant!
reader k | 8/17/2005 10:02:00 PM |
