time will past by so fast when you are busy with something, and you'd realised that you don't have time anymore for other stuffs you'd enjoyed, or the people you've not seen for some time.
for some months now i was so engaged in something that i lost my mind in it. it's scary. i'm glad it's over. the concentration is good, as i was able to really set my heart and mind into cultivating this "project". but it's very, very taxing, both physically and emotionally, and yes, financially too. i do take risk. i do jump into unknown things if i feel like it at that moment. i don't hesitate at times. i went into it with the expectation of failing. but what is life without failure? failure spurs us to move on. everyone is egoistic to some extend, you want to win.
some people move on fast as they get tired of one moment, one thing. i do that too. i lose interest in this "project" many times before, cos it failed me many times. i contemplated of dumping it totally before, cos it sucks up my energy. every time it failed me, i left it, then i'll go back to it again, but see it from a different perspective. it did looked a bit different. still, it's a risk to take.
ah, and this time it failed again. i think i'm giving it up for good.
i'd rather spend my time, energy and money on clothes and shoes.
some other idiots will go pick up the "project", i'm sure.
good luck to you.
reader k | 12/07/2005 11:39:00 AM |
