dear people,

i am not around from today till 1st dec.

k
reader k | 11/24/2006 12:22:00 PM | 5 comments

i am reading
"Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close".

it is impossible to put it down.

by jonathan safran foer
reader k | 11/23/2006 01:28:00 AM | 0 comments

no wonder, or maybe pure coincidence.
it appear unexpectally and caught me by surprise.
we exchange a few news, mostly friendly and trivial.
i had long regarded it dead, but was told not to think of it to be lifeless.
spotted at different incidents but not acknowledged,
no reasons why,
no purpose for.
stuffs just went on.

it is as though it'd took on a new form
but still recognisable.

i am finally done with 'the unbearable lightness of being'.
it has been so hard, and heavy, i was going to give it up, when i'd only have 20 pages left.
then i decided to press on and finished it last night.
i'm glad i did, because everything became clearer.

we needed to be strangers again to be able to go on.
i have not observe you for years now,
only spotted-on unexpectally and i choose to ignore the familiarity.
it is easier that way.

it was nice to read you today,
i hope your car is fine.
reader k | 11/22/2006 12:33:00 AM | 0 comments

the song goes:
'i love you, you love me....'
and renee (the one in pink) always sing it as:
'i love you, i love me.....'

we thought it is so untrue and unreal,
until we saw it there, on this wall, at the art museum.

this picture is especially done for these 2 cuties.
i love you two,
reese and renee :)
reader k | 11/18/2006 12:57:00 AM | 7 comments

so busy with all the planning and tons of paper work. i tried to make myself not so miserable. got a new hair-cut, that is a MUST in every year, at least twice a year and i've also finally cleared my desk. it's a mess, my desk. yet to clear the ART RESOURCE folder, equally messy.

was at 2 meetings back to back today and i found myself overloaded with information. my head wanders here and there and i dreamt up fabulous ideas of what i'd want to do for this and that, for department and CCA, for development and curriculum design, for SOW, for teaching, basically, ALL for work. but i only dreamt. i tried to put them down in paper, black and white. i hope it won't be like the portfolio plan i have since last year and have not implement it.

lately i found myself so short of energy and time to be productive. so much things to want to accomplish.

full of ideas, but lost.
reader k | 11/17/2006 04:50:00 PM | 2 comments

long before this blog thing came about,
we have email.

when fab and yaya first went to UK,
we wrote letters to each other almost every week,
at times twice a week.
we sent photos through snail mails.
then everyone got too busy.
so we emailed.
we anticipated long emails from one another so often.

then we stop emailing,
as everyone got busier.

now,
once in a while we sms.
once in a long while, we emailed.
once in a little while here and there, we read each others' blog.

i can't believe how lazy i've became when technology has advanced.

reader k | 11/09/2006 10:24:00 AM | 4 comments

can't sleep can't sleep can't sleep.
i wanted to be able to sleep and be awake quite normally,
not having nightmares is a good start.

desire to sleep at the correct normal time has been difficult,
not that there's anything or anyone distracting me,
just my head refusing to go to sleep even though my body needed the rest.

then i am in a daze in the day
eyes wide open in the night.

maybe the battery is running low.
reader k | 11/09/2006 10:07:00 AM | 4 comments

madness business.

finally the O levels art exams is OVER!
so i won't talk about it anymore, till next year.

my desk had once again, been neglected by me.
everyday i walked into the staff room but never sat at my desk for more than 15 mins in total for the whole day i am in school.
work has been extra tiring. more tiring than actual teaching days.
minister from UAE is coming and the whole school is preparing for this,
on top of taking care of the O levels exam, CCA
and working on SEM.
it's mad mad mad.

we went home each day, half-dead
came back the next day more dead.
as good as zombie, only worse, as we still have to pretend to smile.
what life.

on the brighter side,
art room has been cleaned, 80% and thanks to dear kelvin, the art box has been swept and mopped. we are all glad.
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pop by at PKW for the BA show. congrats to my dear friends serene, serenah, ade, likeng, swee eem, finosh. the Dozen show. i only knew the 1/2 dozen. if i have joined them 2 years ago, it won't be called a Dozen then :)

and i saw her.
in front of ade's work.
the tiny boxes with the reading light shinning on the shapes.
but we didn't talk.
then i saw her.
outside the toilet.
we hugged and it was real and we talked and she took a pic of me.
and end.

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met up with k.mcgee for Deepavali at Reddy's place.
it's been 6 or 7 years since i last saw him.
i asked how long he is staying.
he said 'couple of hours'.
he lasted more than that.

saw him 2 days later for dinner.
he and A discussed about what goes grossly well with vanilla milk shake.
it was their favorite conversation while i was 30 mins late.
he filled me in about his work, about the evaluation of PHD, about why he is back here again.
he asked what i want to do after next year.
7 years ago before he left, he sat me down and asked me the same question.
i was clearer with my intention then.

he remembered me as the catalyst of the enginneers' office.
my L-shaped desk at the door of the office area-lobby,
my music playing like nobody's business,
and it became everyone's business.
"i've always told people, you came, and the guys started to walk out of their offices and communicate".

wow, i didn't know.



reader k | 11/03/2006 03:57:00 PM | 1 comments